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I know i've literally killed this blog 3 months ago. haha. but recently, i've been having the thot of reviving it up again. not fr the purpose of being glamourous or any of that sort of sh*t. i just wanna prove to myself or to anyone infact... that by bringing this blog up again, i am capable of standing up to whatever happens instead of running away. if... you kno what i mean ;) .

Haha.. honestly, I'm not comfortable posting publically anymore. I find that privacy is just what I need these days but I realised... asking for privacy drives me away from my friends around the globe. It sorts of cause me to be socially inactive. I'm dead in Friendster... in coma in Facebook and half-alive in MSN. Hahaha.

Forgive me. I didn't mean to ignore any of my friends (including rah MD now). It's just that... catching up with you all is just so heavy for me. I admit, it is.. and I was wrong to have promised a part-time service to some of you on the internet. It's just so.. heavy 'cause I have to pile u all up with my current friends and be busy with altoghether. Plus, with the school works stuffing my hand, i'm just... really... antah. it all pushed me to give up in the end and just become inactive or tapis-ed girl. haha pakannn? lurus kah tu. haha.

anyways, 3 months are just too much to cramp up in a post so i'll stop here. but here's an update of my life: holiday from the new Katok school; alone at home; BM & Bio exams coming up; and...... him :)

Zainul Akhir.... Kerbau Ku !!!!!!! heeeeee...

oh ya, maybe ahh m gona start writing dlm malayyy beginning my next post. it's not that i've been feeling so cool using english here or even 80% of my life. i dont think i even want to!! it's just... payah bah bagiku.. my malay is an embarassment! so that's why masih a "maybe".. haha. and if you don't get it, live my life and you'll understand this lil bit pain of mine........

PS. Malas banaaa ku kn men-edit layoutnya ani.. haha.. nanti tah! biar tia bidaaa . Oh and if i've been such an ass for not replying in MSN or Facebook, really2 sorry. hehe... just don't announce my death...... yet ;)

Not at all a good routine / [REC]

The worst thing I hate about holidays is that I have to sleep so frikin’ late. Why is that? WHY? Hahaha. I know right. even this I whine about! Nada kan distresskan lagi bah! Hahaha! Well, at least it hasn’t been worst as it was during the years in KL. I slept at about 4 or 5am. Tsk tsk tsk. And I just can’t remember what I was staying up for!

But it was definitely unhealthy! That was before A-levels tho. And for that, A-levels really know how to discipline you, man. Like, getting a correct daily routine! I mean, that is if you’re so determined into getting a future… ‘cause the only way to succeed is by having that sort of daily routine! So go figure if you need to! :P

So yeah, I woke up with a headache the whole day since I only slept for 4 hours. I’m so not used to this “-__- but I forced myself anyway to wake up early. Part of the TCF syllabus: get up no later than 10am.

Anyways, brought my headache to as far as Muara. If my memory does not fail me, I think it was my first time there. Gila… it reminded me of a bit of an island in Iran mixed with one arah Indonesia! Not making any sense but seriously, the town really did bring me to the past. Mami wanted to bring me over to see some ships sailing by (ada kah??) but Dadi insisted that we should go for the Pantai Serasa instead. So we headed for the Pantai. In the end tho, after getting lost for about 15-20 minutes, we gave up and headed back to Berakas to pick Yum up arah stadium. Hahaha.

I FINALLY GET TO WATCH THIS:

[REC]

THIS MOVIE IS HIGHLY RECOMMENDED! ESPECIALLY TO THOSE FANS OF RESIDENT EVIL OR ANY ZOMBIE-ISH SORT OF GAMES/MOVIES. Ok, being a FORMER horror-game-fanatic… the degree of how scary it was.. is like RESIDENT EVILs + SILENT HILL + CLOCK TOWER = [rec] … I’VE NEVER BEEN SO FRIGHTENED BY SUCH MOVIE. EVEN YUM! It’s mostly RE-ish la… ‘cause it’s more to zombies all within this sealed apartment. CAN YOU JUST IMAGINE THAT??? “SEALED”! How are you gonna survive with all of ‘em chasing after you then? Curious? WATCH IT! HIGHLY RATED AROUND THE GLOBE, YO! I CAN SAY IT’S ONE OF THE BEST HORROR MOVIES OF THE DECADE.

The fact that it was cam corded made it extra effective in bringing us into the screen. I’m not exaggerating. Haha. At least it’s how I felt… as well as Yum jua! She totally totallyyyy underestimated this movie. She had a feeling that it’d be just another common kind but heck! she was screaming here & there just as i was. we even had to watch it with the light open! Hahaha. But it would have been more fun with a bigger screen, bigger sound system and a bigger group of people.

I’d say watch it with a group of people… family or friends because trust me, you’d be more than entertained. Let’s just hope it won’t give any nightmares tho :PPP . Watch it! Take the adventure! GET YOUR ADRENALINE WORKING MORE THAN EVER!! ;P

man, i feel like i'm writing a part of the english exam ''write a handout with the purpose of persuading readers to watch [rec]. 700 words"

lotsalove xx.

ps. sorry if it doesn't match to your liking. i doubt that tho :)

i finally get to breathe

dear readers (if there's even any), sorry to have bored you all with my rather unattractive posts but really, my intention is never to entertain. they're words... one of my treasures that'd keep my memory going till the end of my life. i read this novel, love during the cholera it was named. and the doctor, in its story, mentioned how forgetful people should reside to this habit of noting or jotting down important things on a notebook so that they wouldn't be discouraged or be unjustly tagged as slackers. Being one, i think it's time to jot things (ie. thoughts) before time flies & i lose the millions of memories within me. i'm already starting to lose my childhood ones......

right, stuff to do by the end of the week:

1. watch [rec] before any nightfall!
2. play more with the chickens at our little farm atta back.
3. a lil pics of farm!
4. JOG!
5. get ingredients for cupcakes (and i'm serious, yum!!)
6. finish off the birthday letter :)
7. get this blog ACTIVE!
8. birthday greetings!
9. R E L A X !

hmm... aight, i hope i can really complete all of 'em this time :P .. there's that new year's resolution as well tho.. gaaah~ hahha cam kana paksa saja bah. nyways uhuk uhuk.. lemme just start with my "7th" stuff to do right now... and i hope i'd be loyal to this one.

HAPPY ADVANCED 18th BIRTHDAY, JIKKIE!!!! sure hope you have a wonderful day tmorow which u will :) . ok ok , let's reminisce a lil. i've known jik for about *counting counting* waaa.. 7 years ;P . prolly the only BIS girl i still see around. hahaha. neways, i met jikkie when i was in year 6 arah BIS .. hmm... i remember I was in 6 SUTTON and she was in 6 HEALD, lurus kan jik? :P .. and i remember exactly how her first day went. hmm.. i guess u can call myself a silent observer that day :P .

i was having a Spelling class at the far corner room... yg closest to the Year 6's entrance door. and i remember i was just having a lucky glance whilst listening to Mr. Ferrier's words when I saw her, quite independantly, walking with her father (uncle pakai baju putih!!! ;P) and her 3 siblings. Yeah.. i already had the feeling that she wasn't at all like me (totally dependant). I was so interested to find out what happened to her then but I couldn't afford getting detention for it. hehehe. but i remember that i decided not to let this one go through what i've been through the previous year and promised myself in putting an effort to approach her. hahaha.. i remember my best friend, S**a, got so eeee .. biasalahh kanak2 and decided to break that precious friendship of ours. gaahh..

but anyways, jikkie was, really, the independant sort and i frikin' ADMIRE that special bit of her! hahaha.. well there ya go ziq .. something i never told you! :D hmm... consider that a present ah... CAUSE WHEN It COMES TO YOU, I ALWAYS HAVE PROBLEM GETTING DECISIVE YOUR PRESENTS...yatah i always gave up and just gave you everything i thot of. hahahahaha! :P

- THE END -

A good beginning!

Aight, so today's the second day of my beautiful holiday & right now, I'm staining Yum's laptop with my pretty fingers clicking the keyboard for me blog ;) . My laptop is currently resting bahh... from a v. tiring 20 hours of being awake! ehehe.. i was eager to finish off my download, [rec] , the original version of Quarantine. It's spanish! :D and they say it's scarier than Quarantine. A much greater version. But words are words and I shall judge it with my own two eyes (which will be closed if necessary :P). IT'S WORTH A WATCH, GUYS. macam resident evil wah.. tapi ani automatically controlled so u need not control the characters! and so ye kno, u can just sit back & watch........... which is in a way, scarier. hahaha... but you'd go "YOU STUPID EFFING B$#CH!!", cursing & cursing & cursing & cursing.... *YAWN*

anyways, yesterday was a fully relaxing day. I finally got to watch a lil something with Yum .. 'Schindler's List', which nearly killed me when the downloading kept fluctuating like hell... but as usual, I'm a calm person :P ... just gave in my patience for 4 days of its download.. even tho it could have been over in a day... oh yes, it was really testing me... oh yes i was patient... oh i so was.... anyway, the whole thing was worth it.. cause watching Schindler's List led me to shed a thousand tears. Touching as ever, it deserved that 7 oscars it brought back home!

Ahh.. yesetrday, my dad also wanted to bring us to Tasik Beribun (atleast i think that's what it's called). it was a long drive... 45 minutes approximately. but it gave me a good time to rest my eyes out from the previous tiring day. Hmm~ altho... we never reached it. 'cause the road leading to it was blocked by flood. So, we just turned back and had another 45 minutes journey. LOL.. atleast we were OUT right! :D ... and mami & dadi were enjoying some classic music in the radio, chitchattin as well throughout the journey. Dadi put in an effort to introduce us to each places tho i was already half-asleep.

OMG, THERE WAS AN INCIDENT BEFORE THAT. We were actually eating in a restaurant when we decided to go off to Tasik Beribun. And during our last minute, yum decided to have Horlick Shake ... and so when it came, I helped in to finish it :P ... i did complain a few times of how it tasted different from the usual.... and when we reached the bottom of the big mug... i was sucking, with the straw, something hard and i tried to play with the thing and when i decided to search through what it was..... *bam* i was soooooooooo SHOCKED to have discovered that the little thing i've been sucking and playing was.... THE CERAMIC TILE OF THE RESTAURANT'S WALL.. a broken part of it... eeeee~ i was 100% certain. EVERYONE WOULD HAVE BEEN AS WELL!

i wanted to barf 'cause i could feel the wierd taste sticking between my throat. even yum was sickened! eeeeee~ so we just left on the spot, thinking nothing else but to leave the place. Hahaha. but seriously, disgusting man .. n i talked to myself of what its little effect can be, in terms of chemistry i mean :P . gila gila.

i'm sure abg aiman would find something coincidence to this whole thing. tapi NO WAY, I'M NOT GIVING ANY HINTS TO HIM :PPP . ehehe.

Today, I just woke up early ... ehem specifically at 11 ehem .. to find out that I have broken a promise I made with mum :'( . I promised that I'd go with her arah Tg. Ghani sebalah to see his new cucu. She called anyway.. and expressed her dissapointment v. well and asked me to come immediately. so i did, with no hesitation. and turned out to be quite exciting :D .. had a.. ehem.. breakfast whilst chitchatting with the relatives including Ka Nurul. then watched the lil baby get shaved. it was a heart-gripping sight, really ... but i had to be calm ofcourse 'cause i know i'm gna see alot more worse than this in my future.

Alright, it's been relaxing. and i've got my blogging mood back already :DDD . ehehe.. so as ever, no pictures :PP. ah yeah, i have a class to attend to in an hour so better go start off the preparation.

HELLO, HEMIPHTERA!

those two have officially named my laptop Hemiphtera *sukahati lagi tu! haha*... but I don't know .. I guess I'll agree to it but NOT 100% tho. I mean... why Hemiphtera?? it's like........ er... cleopetra??!!? hahhaha so why? why? wHYyy?? it's unique tho.

i've been deciding on its name for weeks no! cause i've always liked the sound sera (named by andoc) on yum's laptop... macam masuk brabis bah! hahaha so i've been trying to find the correct one for my laptop. so hemiphtera.... hmm.... not sure aa~ macam not right bah. if u can suggest any other names for the moment tho, i think that'd be great :D .

Below are just a long summary of what I did yesterday. *LOL*

No Pictures ... sorry, malas bah :((( . hehehe.

yesterday was prolly the most tiring day i've been through for the month. Went to school in the morning. I didn't plan to actually.. but Ana txted me the night before askin if i'd come... then she said she's coming 'cause it's the last day. And i realised then how stupid it'd be if i were not to come... i mean, last day at MD kan ?? tho it's been only for 3 months, it's given me thousands of memories already. so i came... tapi with hardly any respect to the dressing code! everyone were to wear skulah's tudung and sport pants .. and i WORE tudung bebas w/ my JEANS on! aaaaah, mmbari maluuu. but atleast, i didn't get any scoldings.

was with Ana the whole time. and I kno i really am gonna miss her, my BE partner :( . she was one of the three people who approached me first and need not any approachings. she's always been opened and a fun one to talk to :D . after the whole aerobics which was funny in a way, we skipped the whole cleaning campaign and decided to head off to the mall as we gave up waiting for her mum. si ana di sana menyampaikan atu nya saja pulang .. :P .. then we headed off to McD, dangani she makan .. and i only had about an hour and 15 minutes by then to meet Rick.

So we talked and talked and then, got interfered by Mess, the gay partner of Fakhri :P (well atleast that's how we met. haha). banar.. smua kan besharing ani wa. My english went suddenly broken when he came, prolly cause i had to adjust my language to malay when i talked to Ana. there are random times when i can go bi-lingual and rest as mono-lingual :PP. anyways, when i parted from ana, i was pretty sad that i din express my farewell well... 'cause.. well... as you all know... i suck at farewells ;( . i'll just sms her, i guess...

went to hav lunch at Wecan where ze envelope was given :) . by this time, ofcourse, my english went at its usual condition already ... hahaha.. and i had nasi goreng daging with the ice blended chocolate rick introduced me to. btw, Wecan is truly a place worth recommending. It has the cuisine of a typical restuarant but something more. The proportion of its quantity is ALOT compared to its cheap prize. and the thing about this place... is that it's hidden. and i think they did that intentionally ... because really, it's quite a haven there. the theme of its restaurant is traditional and its eating places are varied. it's all....... v. unique. So you all should try. Thanks Rick :) .

Jess came then at around 2pm and we just hung out infront of the cineplex. met dozens of MDians ... last day kan.. duh. hehe. and then i was introduced to the other people who joined ie. Joven aka John and Victor. Since Victor joined v. last minute ... he had to take a seat alone 2 rows behind us... and believe me, thank god it wasn't me. reason: THE MOVIE WAS SOOOOO DAMN SCARY. seriously i've never screamed so much in a cinema before. it was 'Quarantine' btw. and seriously the whole effects it made .. and how it felt so real just scared the sh*t out of me and plus, i was imagining the whole time if i were in their shoes. OUTCOME = rick is afraid of me; i think joven was impressed by my screamings :P; jess needs to get a new jacket. hahaha.. nadawaa.. but i did pull grabbed/pulled her jacket the whole time. so sorry guys ;) .

it was fun tho when we kept like asking ourselves "what if the whole MALL is 'quarantin'-ed???" and jess kept going "shut up shut up shut up" hahaha. but it is a wonder, what if we were to be in their shoes. nanguzubillah...

we headed then to the arcades. tried out the basketball thingy. rick scored quite high (OFCOURSE!!)... me & jess only landed to a 37. SHE SUCKS, NOT ME!!! :PPP nada waa, ofcourse, i was the cause hahaha. and sadly, i still have tokens in my bag *darn! forgot to use 'em* ... the rest wanted to watch madagascar again 'cept fr Rick so they booked it. went to wecan again and waited to be picked up as they had their dinners. my aunty came and that was the end of the long day.

summarising it all is already tiring hehe. overall, they were such a pleasant group to hang out with. jess was the one who wanted it all. LOL, glad that i'd be seeing her next year ;)) . and it was also nice to have gotten to know more MD-ians eg. Joven who looked extremely like a malay LOL.

The suckiest thing is that I couldn't find Kimah!!! my dear chem partner! I OWE HER $5 for her lovely 'pudding'. Eeee~ cana ni aah!! I wont have the ease to see her anymore since she's staying!! X( .. maybe i'll hand it to rick kali? *sighh* .. gna miss her, neway.

It was definitely a good day out. i consider it a celebration to the last day at MD tho I wasn't completely satisfied to have not given proper farewells to some. but it was still good for the beginning of my first ONE MONTH HOLIDAY since ALEVELs STARTED (A YEAR & HALF AGO)!! time to get my mind all relaxed yo!

read the envelope after the night and was v. v. v. touched by it. Thank You :'))

HAVE A WONDERFUL HOLIDAY, EVERYONE!!! STOP WORRYING, JUST ENJOYYYY!!!!

Wonders.

It's been a rather interesting day. More discoveries of sadness balancing with the opposite.

Oh karma karma karma.. you're killing me.

I din have much of a refreshing beginning, even tho I woke up at 10.30am. my v. busy days need to be compensated by atleast a nice 12-hours of slumbering -Mmm~ sounds seductive- and I haven't had that yet for the past weeks. So, I can't wait for the holiday. It'll do me good. Hopefully.

Some declared their holidays yesterday when it officially ends this Sat. Haha.. and sadly I can't do that since I need to suck up for the attendance "thingy". UhHhh~ I'm still not coming tmorow pulaaangg:P .. Sat sounds fun tho and i think it's best to come. The last day at MD. The last day to see friends in that huge campus. The last day to be officially a student there. Sigh... how sad this is. I'm only new and already I feel this way... how about the rest who's been here months before me? who's been together with their friends fr years? And that is how sucky this whole shit is. But oh well, life is full of suprises. So BRING IT ON !!! ( pjah power! :P )

Sadly, Sir Abbas is not willing to dismiss our Maths classes so my holiday won't really be... a holiday :( . I guess, I don't mind. I might not even go to KL afterall, which is a good thing 'cause I prefer spendin my off days at my home country, getting expriences from each places whilst collecting memories before i MOVE to else where. LOL .. I just thought of that after chatting with Ziqah. And she's right. I might not even be able to do karate as well.. Was really hopin for it tho, nish.

OHMYGODDD, I SAW CC TODAY! IT WAS V. V. V. V. WIERD! I've always had this idea that the people I met in Iran would stay there and would never be spotted again in the other side of the world. Just like those in Indon.. and even those in KL! So people like Jikkie/BB/Wane/Zaf/Dil/Diyana/CC... it's been wierd :P . 'cause it's like... seein u guys who once used to be some sort of my neighbours in a diff planet and now.. somehow... stalked me to earth because of my good looks or sumfin :P . BUT IT WAS GOOD SEEING U CC !! FUNNY IN A WAY BUT VERY GOOD. AND YES, I KNOW I'VE GONE TANNED .. LOL the walk + the heat = instant tanning. seriously... you brought me to my nostalgic mood again.. bringing me back to my KL days... sighh. including the time when she put up that stupid joke which involved the monash's computer catching me as an intruder ! ha ha ha .. very funny (sarcastically) LOL

Ahnehwayss, G'na continue watching Rick's recommended movies :) Thanx rick! And uh.. I've got four promises to hang out. I hope to keep these promises. I can't guarantee just yet :D .. 'cept for this sat with Jess. OH, Here's a random phrase: I DONT GET NO MORE OF OUR LIL BEDTIME STORIES :P ... if..... you kno what i mean.

TAGS? sorry, jaila .. yum . bisuk tah :P

lotsalove

PS. i have to chance to work at Reader's Haven for the holiday :D !!!!!!! Hope I'd get it!!

TAGGED BY HER.

Today would have been... if it's all going according to the theory... one the last school days at MD. Yeah, katok is really putting everyone in distress. We had our last Bio Class with Cg. Lina. Yeah and I realised that she's a sharp observer. She can see how Afni follows her mood most of the times.. how Far is different inside (a cmmited student) & outside class (smethign quite the opposite :P)... how Siti needs to talk more etc. Tho I've only been with her for 3 months and even within the 3 months that I am hardly attentive in her class... I still admire her as a teacher who knows well how to interact with the students and I always ended up bumping into the caring side of her... So yeah, I will miss her, a pleasant lady aka My first Bio teacher in Brunei :P .

Then, Chem... as usual... just lingered around my note book, doodling all over. English, we did more on the commentary subject.. gah! enough is ENOUGH! hahaha. Maths was more to partying. Our Madam Chan gave us free chocs and candies as well as fruits. Oh nononoo~ they're nt just regular stuff! they were bought outside Brunei! Austrialian Orange, German KitKat, KL candies etc!!! COOL!

My god, did you sense the irony of the day?? I had no classes except for English which is funny 'cause it was always "I had classes except for English" . LOL . Went to The Mall with friend. Bumped into Liyana! Haven't seen her in dayss!! She was with her bf whom I hope din mind the hugging ..wtf?? hahaa.. yana's my english buddy. v. friendly indeed :) . Then, bumped into Munirah (Munirr..) who's also my english buddy! hahaaa. If i won't see these guys in Katok, then I'm gna miss them.. truly :) . went home then at 3.

And i'm glad I've returned to Brunei for good :) . I'm glad that the post-3-months after the rather tough moving... I'm glad that I've found good friends that I'd like to keep by my side forever. Im glad that the harsh times of adjusting are over and I'm so so glad that I've learnt alot about fitting with the people here... for that matter tho, still am learning.

tiring day "=________= .. here's something to cheer me up:

MY TOP 10 MOST FAVOURITE FOOD:

1. Mother's Cooked Cornflakes

2. Mother's Tiramisu

3. Mother's Choc. Cake

4. Roti Telor :P

5. Sweet & Sour chicken with Nasi Goreng

6. Kimbab

7. Amp. Avenue's Ddak Pok ki

8. Fried Wantans

9. Sushi! OH EBI FRY!!!

10. DAMN GOOD OL' JOLLIBEE! :P

MY TOP 10 THINGS TO DO:

1. Playing ze piano~

2. writing my private blog

3. talking and talking to my loved ones aka family/friends!

4. listening to ppl

5. watch movies

6. day dream of the future and its wonders

7. loving my parents

8. play with my nieces

9. making plans which ended up NATO-ed

10. going online

5 THINGS I LOVE TO DO WHEN I'M EMO:

1. keep it to myself

2. try to let/work it all out alone

3. write & write

4. weep

5. talk to ppl (depends)

5 TYPES OF GUYS I ADORE:

k.. here goes...

1. understanding and listens to me

2. mutual feelings and thoughts

3. loves me for who i am

4. loyal

5. non-jerkish :P

5 THINGS I LOVE TO DO WHEN I'M HAPPY:

1. sing & dance

2. talk & talk & talk

3. eat!

4. hug everyone!

5. listens...

5 THINGS I WISH TO HAPPEN, plus one:

1. to find the right guy i've been looking fr.. :)

2. forward myself to the 10-years-time me.. for a brief minute tho :P

3. god to tell me what lies beneath the future.

4. to be able to go to otago.

5. fr my family to be peaceful forever :)

I hope... by answering this questionnaire :P readers can get to know a tad more about me :) .

Next tags... tomorow aaa